My Double Lung Transplant

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Silence apparently IS golden

Since last night I have had 2 incidences where I've said something to someone in a joking manner and they didn't get it. Instead, it was turned into something horrible and left me feeling pretty shitty in the end. However, things have resolved themselves, bugs came out of ppl's asses, they lightened up, and there were hugs and kisses all around. This doesn't, however, mean that i have forgotten. Nor does that i takes away the fact that I won't forget that in my feeble attempt to joke with someone that it backfired erroniously and made me feel shitty.

But enough. What's done is done, all is mended. I have to let it go and stop dwelling and worrying if the person inherently hates me. Which they don't.

Today marks 15 months for me on the list. In celebration i went for PFTs with the results yeilding an all-time low of 21% in overall function. In litres my FEV1 is .6L.

Yes you read that right: POINT SIX....0.6L.

And somedays i feel like i have to justify why i cannot get off the couch; why i feel like dying when i walk to the car.....Hmmm....who woulda thunk it.

I think that's it. I saw many tx friends today and they're all lookin' stellar.

Hope you're well.

1 comment:

Alice said...

awww that SUCKS... I'm guessing mine was around there when I got tx'ed. They never actually took it in the last few months of waiting because my Dr at home was lazy or something. Praying you get those lungs soon!