My Double Lung Transplant

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Got the call!

I GOT THE CALL FOR LUNGS TODAY!

At 11:06am they called the house and I wasn't here, I was at the docs in another city. My doc and i were talking about how i may wait longer b/c of my size, when something started beeping and my phone started vibrating, and i checked my pager and it said "1 NEW MSG" and my phone kept ringing. IT WAS THE CALL.

They asked me if i had anything to eat and i said a small breakfast. They told me not to eat anything and to get to TO asap. I told them i wasn't in my city, i was at my respirologist and they told me to get there as fast as i could. I was freaking out/shaking/alarmingly calm. They said to get there by 12:30 and that the donor was a 'beautiful little girl' with 'beautiful pink lungs' but she was deteriorating rapidly.

We made it to Milton when they called my cell again informing me that the donor had deteriorated too fast and that the surgery was off. I wasn't suprised, but i am a little bummed. Part of me wonders if i dawdled too much at the docs, or if i could have gone faster. But i know i can't do that since it largely depends on the donor.

Am i crushed? Not really. If i don't think about it i'm fine; it's when i think about it that i get down. At least they know i'm on the list and near the top! I just hope i don't wait too much longer till the real call comes!

Say a prayer for me people!

For now, I'm going to Jenna's house for apple crisp and try to be as normal as possible.

13 comments:

Alice said...

IT MEANS YOUR TIME IS COMING SOON!!!!!!!! I'm SOOO excited for you!!!

Tara said...

Wow Bree. Wow! I have chills. I'm glad your dry run wasn't too demanding. Enjoy that apple crisp!

BreathinSteven said...

Wow, Bree!!!

I sincerely doubt dawdling at the docs had anything to do with this turning into a "false alarm"... So put that out of your mind. Lungs deteriorate quickly compared to other organs -- and coordinating procurement of all of the organs, including the lungs, takes time... If you would have been there 1-2-3 hours earlier, I doubt that that would have made a difference...

The beautiful little girl's family are in my thoughts and prayers -- though it didn't happen, they still tried to save your life, Bree... It's still a beautiful gesture...

And I'm glad you're not crushed -- I know from experience that really gets the adrenilin flowing!!! And you may even be emotionally whupped tomorrow... But it is a really-really good reminder that, YES, you are actually on the list... I hope the next one is soon too and that you gained something from this little dress rehearsal!

You're in my thoughts and prayers...

Love,

Steve

Jennifer said...

I nearly crapped myself when I read the title of this blog. Damn! I can't wait for THE ONE.

Marjolein said...

Oh my gosh, sweetie!
I'm so sorry to hear that this was a false alarm.
I'm thinking of you and crossing my fingers that your next call will come soon!

Really big hug! Talk soon!

Amy said...

I was thinking to myself that holy cow Bree could have new lungs then I realized that you are signed into AOL right now so unless you are on AOL and in surgery it couldn't happen. :)

Then I read the blog. I am sorry it wasn't "the one" but soon my dear, soon!!!!!

<3

Matt Todd said...

Well i guess that's a good and a bad thing. Really sucks to have a dry run like that. But at least you know you're at the top and very close. And hopefully it will be soon. With the rate that you say they seem to do lungs there I would think it shouldn't be to much longer. And also i guess its better to wait a bit longer to get really good lungs than rush in to mediocre lungs. I sure hope the real deal comes soon. I got mine now you need to get yours. We were listed at the same time and you've waited too long after me, you're supposed to be going through the recovery process with me, not waiting.

The Yorkshire Rambler said...

So sorry the call didn't end with new lungs. Prayers going up for you and the little girls family though and hope your turn comes soon :)

Jennifer said...

Your prayers will be answered soon.

Dragonfly said...

Prayers for you and for her family. At least you know that you are up the top of the list. Dry runs suck though (so I have been told). And if her lungs deteriorated like that while you were trying to get there, they wouldn't have been the best lungs for you to have anyway.

don said...

wow,what a feeling.just got the news on alices blog.its a pity but i believe everything happens 4 a reason.hope u not 2 shaken up. Hoping 4 the call again. Till then, im still reading,enjoying,laughing. Keep wel. Don

hobbz said...

WOW...when it's your time, it will work out! You are strong and will survive this false alarm and be even better prepared for the real thing! I read your blog daily and am thinking of you often.

take good care!

walkingbyfaith said...

I can't wait until you get the call AND the lungs. :)

Praying that time is soon..