My Double Lung Transplant

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Innocence

A white cat stands shakily in the middle of a hardwood floored room, staring longingly at the open windows before her. Opened wide, a strong warm summers breeze glides in, the scent of flowers drifting in along them.

The cat stares. Too old, and too unsteady, she isn't strong enough to jump up onto the windows ledge, to feel the breeze she longs to feel, to smell the scents of the flowers she cannot see. She shakes, her legs too old and weak to let her stand much longer.

I watch from the hallway, saddened by the sight of my Heidi Spidey. I cannot watch anymore, and i come to her and gather her off the floor and place her gently on her favourite window, near enough to the back of the chair so she can get off the window when she has tired.

The triumphant little, Gremlin-ish face that stares back at me as i place her on the window beams with so much happiness that it lifts my heart. For although I know it's a simple gesture, the joy it has brought her moves me greatly. She may be an animal, and she may be old, but she still desires, feels, wants. She's still here.

If placing her on the window so she could watch the world outside, feel its breeze and smell its flowers, is what has made her day, then it has made mine as well. I will not forget the joy that radiated from her little white face today. What seemed impossible to her was made possible in the blink of an eye, when she thought that no one was watching or noticing.

And i know the same for myself. Because when I think life is impossible, the moment will come when it is possible, and in the blink of an eye, my world will change even though I thought that no one was watching or noticing.

25 comments:

BreathinSteven said...

You're a pain in the ass sometimes... I had to go get kleenex... Love, Steve

Bree said...

AWW STEVE!!!!!!!!!!!!! *hugs*

Meghann "Former Queen of the O2 People" said...

That was very profound. I loved it. No matter how old or feeble or disabled we get, let's hope there is always someone there watching and willing to help us enjoy the small things in life!

Amy said...

Awe honey I didn't know you could be so deep LOL beautifully written :)

And I'm kidding about the deepness ;)

Amy said...

Oh and BTW I now have Britney Spears song stuck in my head...I'm not that innocent LOL

BreathinSteven said...

I just heard, Bree... I hope when you're reading this, it's with beautiful, new lungs... Hang in there, buckaroo...

Love, Steve

Sarah said...

Bree!!! I just heard about your new lungs from Alice. YEAAAAA God is good! I'm praying that you have a quick recovery! :) :)

Adrienne said...

Just heard the fantastic news about the new lungs...hoping everything goes fantastically well and you are back on your feet again soon.

All the best

Adrienne


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Jennifer said...

Oh my Goodness Bree! I just heard from Alice. :O

So happy for you. Hope to hear some news soon.

Jessica said...

I litterally got chills and tears filled my eyes when I read about your wonderful news. I am so happy for you. can't wait for more updates!!! Take a deep breath and enjoy it woman! It's finally happened for you.

Jess said...

This post is so fitting! You'll be up on that ledge soon! Good luck with the recovery, you're in my thoughts!

Rene said...

So glad for you Bree; I have been praying for you. God is so faithful!!! May the road to recovery be a blessed journey.
Love
René
South Africa
(Alice's mom)

Waiting For Ling-Ling said...

I've been praying for you for a very long time-I am so happy for you! I will now pray for a quick recovery.

L

Stephanie said...

I've been reading along forever and have only commented once or twice, but I just wanted to say HOOOOORAY!!!!!!!

Paula said...

Really hope that all is well and you recover quickly.

Marjolein said...

See in that blink of an eye, your phone did ring and your world did change!

Congrats sweetie, I have been thinking of you all weekend

Alice said...

Can't believe I'm only posting on your blog now, but as you can see I have apparently been informing everyone abt your new lungs! Can't wait to read your first post with the new puffers!!!!

Danielle said...

This is my first comment here but I've been reading for awhile. I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU! Can't wait to read about all the things you do with these shiny new things :)

Danielle

Megan said...

You know what I love? The fact that just before you got your call, your MSN name says 'Good things are coming!'

They certainly were! I miss our long rambling chats on MSN! I hope you're feeling amazing with your new lungs! Talk soon! Xx

Kate Smith said...

This is my first post but a long time reader - CONGRATULATIONS! You deserve the new lungs and I hope all is well! I can't wait to read the blog b/c you are such a good writer! Post pics when you can.

hobbz said...

Bree, I've been reading your post forever and I've only commented a couple of times like others have said, but I check in almost daily to see if your call has come in.....well apparently it has and I have you in my thoughts!!!! You are a true testement to all of us out there who struggle with chronic disease! I can't think of anyone more deserving at this moment for those glorious pink lungs. Breathe peacefully and know that while I may not know you personally...you have touched MANY hearts with your blog.

take good care!
hobbz/jan

Rebekah said...
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Rebekah said...

That was well written and brough a tear to my eye. I hope that you are hanging in there Bree. You know I love ya! We need NEED NEED to hang otu soon! Let me know what you are up for and we will make it happen.

Jess said...

Like some others have said, I know you don't really know me and I've only posted here a few times. But, I have followed your blog and I am so happy that you finally got new lungs! Yay!

Kira said...

Oh gosh I was sitting there wondering why you hadn't posted for so long so wandered to your last post and checked the comments. WOW! I thought that would be a wonderful reason why you were gone. Praying all has gone well so far and that each day brings you leaps and bounds to the life you were waiting to live with your new lungs.

praying for a speedy recovery
Kira
www.kirafayescorner.blogspot.com