My Double Lung Transplant

Thursday, May 22, 2008

The Truth Revealed

It's official: I make noise in my sleep.

On the bus.

And not just once.

I had a shitty sleep lastnight - i had some stupid fucking song in my head except it was the same part going over and over again, and b/c i knew i had to be up at 7 AM to attend an 11am meeting at TO that McIntern would not be attending b/c he no longer is at TGH, thoughts and fears were rushing through my head. Also, at about 2:30 am, I woke up thinking I was having a heart attack.

I went to bed around 11:45pm, fell asleep at 3am, woke up at 7am. I hauled ass to the bus, waited in the cold, got on, and fell asleep...I was half asleep but half awake, and completely in control of my body I felt. So i slept....I could hear the song on my iPod so i was in complete control.

And then a little sound escaped me, but it was fine b/c like I said, I was in complete control. And then another, or maybe it was the same sound. I could still hear the song in my head so it was cool. I decided to open my eyes. My brain shifted into consciousness....what was going on in reality was NOT occuring in my head. I was NOT listening to Evanescence but rather I think it was Fergie. And i didn't just make ONE sound I had made a TON and I'm pretty sure they were LOUD.

So the verdict is in that I cannot be allowed and must be forbidden to sleep on public transit b/c I probably scare people with my inability to sleep soundly. Not just that, but when i sleep my chest tends to gurgle b/c of all the shit inside so that accompanied with the odd escaped sound, is embarassing.

So i got to TO, went to the hosp and went to the meeting. It was fine. Rehab was ok, but now that McIntern and Intern Friend are GONE, NO ONE comes to check on one even cares! No McIntern - just McSadness and McLonliness.

Actually, it was more like total McAbandonment.

I had a clinic appt so i went and waited an hour. I told them about how i feel that Tobi is killing me and doing dick all, and i had to give a sputum sample right then and there, so I champed it up and did it, and they were quite appauled with what i brought up, so I am instructed to begin Cipro so that I will. I shall begin that tomorrow.

Tomorrow is also the farewell party at the rehab place i was at before i started at TGH. I made cupcakes. They are full of specialness.

That's all for now. I'm off to watch Kimmel and sleep for hopefully 10 hours.

1 comment:

Alice said...

Oh shame Bree... not a cool day! Hope you're fast asleep now!!! I also used to make noised when I sleep!!! VERY embarassing!!!