My Double Lung Transplant

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

I'm such a fucking idiot!



AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

I HATE MYSELF IMMENSELY RIGHT NOW. I AM SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT!!!

*screams*

*cries*

*kicks small children out of the way*

Ok let me begin. I woke up at 8 today...thinking, "Grand, I have time to catch the 8:55 bus" so i get ready, get dressed, do meds, make-up, hair, blah blah and am good to go. I filled my oxygen tank up and was on my way.

I drove to where i catch the bus, and i run up to the stop (running is a horrible idea i've discovered) and i looked up at the Greyhound sign. It read something like, "Pick up and drop off from 5:30am-8:30am, 5:30 pm" or something. I remembered I caught the bus last Wednesday at this spot after 8:30 for the 8:55 bus...

Or did I?

I unzipped my bag and whipped out my bus schedule. I couldn't turn it over fast enough to look at the morning schedule, but when I did, my fears had been confirmed....

There is no 8:55 bus. There is an 8am bus, and then a 9:55 bus, the one I usually catch down the street.

So I missed it.

Fuck.

Do you know what this means? It means that I have to catch the 9:55am bus which puts me in at TO at 11:25am...which means I will miss a good portion of the support group that McIntern goes to, which means less gawking and less time for leg touching and 'getting to know you/getting to know all about you' b/c i planned on being in there early b/c i had a feeling he would show up early too...

And my plans are now all but distroyed.

B/c I am a fucking idiot.

Regardless, I will stil go to the rest of the meeting (if i can make it on time). Hopefully he will talk to me afterwards. Maybe he won't even go today, which would be great, b/c it would mean that I didn't miss him or anything.

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.


Cry with me people......Cry with me.


Day 15 of being listed

2 comments:

Alice said...

Oh CRAP BREE!!!! I'm also feeling upset now dammit! Well hope he's there and you better have a good update tonight!!! Hope you're with him being all hot and funny right now as I type this!!!

Matt Todd said...

You should have just drove your self there after missing the bus and you should have drove like hell.