My Double Lung Transplant

Friday, January 18, 2008

Transplant Fears (dun dun dun)

Firstly, no word from Transplantland yet.

Second, lets talk about my transplant fears, shall we? Great. I'll go first.

Transplant Fear #1:
Getting fat. Truely. I'm terrified of Prednisone b/c of what it did to me the last time I was on it. I blew up. I looked like a monster. I had terrible, terrible moonface. I had to go to PROM bloated with terrible, swollen moonface b/c i had gotten off prednisone and for me, it took EONS to leave my system. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I know I will prob have to be on it, so lets hope it's a small dose. I'm superficial; i know. So shut up.

Transplant Fear #2:
Getting a job. I'm going to have to live, which means I have to plan my future. That's scary! It's normal - I've never been normal. So i'm scared of it. I hope i can get a good job and afford a house. I hope. I hope.

What else am I scared of? Not much, which I guess is good. I'm terrified I'm not going to be able to find a good job once I'm all fixed and better. But I guess that's better than worrying about other shit But what in the hell will i do with a degree in Anthropology? Work in a museum? I dunno....I really don't. For now, I'm working on graduating. Oh yeah, and doing homework, which I should probably get back to.

I took a break to bake brownies.

Oh me. Oh my. What will we do with ourselves? I guess we'll just sleep I guess. That's ok with me.

2 comments:

Brittney said...

I understand your pred fears, I've been on it for over two years and at higher doses I get moonfaced. Not to mention bloated, we can't forget that. But, at lower doses I don't have a problem with it so I hope you can taper off to a low dose if you get put on it.

As for working in a museum, I'd love that job. I will go to a museum over just about anything (maybe not a zoo, after all I was a keeper for five years), so working in one would be fabulous. Have you ever been to the Feild museum in Chicago?

Alice said...

So you're scaredof being a Jerry Springer character...fat and unemployed! Haha, you're funny!! I must say I'm also scared of the work thing, I finished my degree more than 2 years ago and feel like I can't remember a thing!! And I've got no experience, so who's gonna employ me! As for the prednisone, I'm on 10mg a day now, and I think I look fine, so hopefully it's not much more than that that they put us on. But I know that they decrease the dose over time.. O well, we'll be so busy with other stuff it won't matter!