It's 4:15am I must be lonely...

Not really, but it's 4:15am and I'm wide awake for several reasons.

1) I woke up to pee, and when i convinced myself it if i got up and did it that i was still tired enough to sleep it would be ok. Apparently not.

2) We're supposed to get a snowstorm and i bet the internal child of me wanted to check up to see if it had yet begun. It had, and I knew before i even got out of bed that it had begun because...

3) Sternum pain, right where the cut the bone, like i'd never felt before. The weather must've changed i told myself. I get headaches when the weather changes and knew this must be quite similar, what with the cold settling in. Many people in this region experience bone pain upon weather changes so i figure this is much the same.

4) The ethereal glow resonating from behind my window. For anyone who's never experienced the novelty of a snowstorm like we do here in the snowbelt (officially what it's called), you'll know that the tell-tale sign that it's snowing is when everything looks brighter at night and appears to glow. Well, it is, and i knew that we were in the midst!

So i did what i knew best, and that was to just get up and make myself either a tea or hot chocolate. I settled for hot chocolate, a meltotonin to help make sleep come back, and to write my blog and get my wintery thoughts out. I've told myself that instead of dreading this eternal cold that we're settling into (feeling like -16 later on this week...wtf), i should relish the fact that I can (safely) participate in winter sports this year, that i can walk in the deep snow and not get out of breath, and to overall, find some semblance of happiness and joy in it instead of dreaming of the next season that is spring.

So here I sit, safely and cozily ensconsed in the warmth of my families kitchen, hot chocoloate consumed, cat being a total loud-as-possible bastard, and sleep is starting to find me once again, as the world outside turns into a bright and blinding - albeit cold - snow globe around me...