O2 24/7 now?

Well fuck.

Here's the story.

Lately, I'm tired all the time again. Not just "i -didn't -get -enough -sleep -lastnight" kinda tired, I'm talking about "this -sucks- why -am- I- so -tired- i slept -for- 9 hours" kinda tired. It's relentless, and it sneaks up on you. One minute you're fine and the next - BAM! "Well shit - we're tired".

When I wake up, I'll take a couple of minutes to get my brain adjusted to needing to focus. Once that happens, I take my oxygen off and make my way down stairs. About 1-2 hours after being awake, i become tired and it creeps on throughout the day. It's to the point now that i contemplate napping - and I'm not a napper.

When I shower I use oxyen, and I leave it on for about 2 hours (b/c that's how long i dick around for after my shower and that's how long it takes me to dry my hair). I take it off soon after i've dicked around and bored myself soul-less. Then the tiredness creeps up again on me.

It was today that I put 2 and 2 together: tiredness that comes on after taking away oxygen=problem. This problem must mean that i should probably be on o2 24/7. Does that upset me? No. Does it bother me? Not really. I guess i've had an inkling for a while, and since the rehab center is gonna hook me up with some liquid O2 hopefully, i won't have such an issue using it all the time and it'll be lighter for being outside.

I told my mum this revelation tonight when i made tea. I said that I should prob be on it 24/7 and that i notice i get tired after i take it off. My mum looked at me and said, "That's not good." and i looked at her and said, "That's lung disease for you."

I had something really funny to post about but i've completely forgotten. Again i've failed to study adequately but every friend i've spoken to is in the same boat so i don't feel so left out and unmotivated.

It was another nice spring day and i had some windows open. The house smells lovely as the air isn't so dry and stagnant anymore.

I heart spring-time. How exciting would it be that this time next year, I had new lungs!?!?